im fine

i dont need friends. i dont really have anyone. i seem to get close to people and then they pick up and leave. i am so tired of ppl getting really close, me completely trusting them and believing that they arent like those other ppl, and then what happens they up and go too. and then all of a sudden im not close with anyone any more. whatever.

ready to explode.

too much going on. aunt jeanette died, my grandma isnt handling it well, the doctor hasnt called back to say whether or not my mom has breast cancer, i dont have the capacity to deal with college too. i really just need my friends to be supportive right now. last weekend sucked. i wish if people werent willing to be there theyd have the spine to be upfront about it, at least i wouldnt waste my time.

as coordinated as the best of them

so i fell down my stairs, my ankle hurts so much. it isnt getting any better i need to see an orthopedic. :/

i havent talked to hardly anyone all weekend. i feel like my friendships are not mutual at all. :[