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i am drained emotionally and mentally. i have been so melancholy lately. i feel like i have a total lack of people that will, or currently are, supporting me. it isnt very encouraging. i dont want to go out, i dont want to even be awake. i need to go out though, giving way to sleeping all the time is not going to help me, but i need to go out with ppl that i feel like they actually want me around. very long, tiring, bad day. i had to go to josh's mother's wake. it was horrible, she died suddenly of a heart attack at 40. he is devastated. :[. i really need to talk to someone that is going to really listen.